it’s been too long since i last wrote. astute observers would see tt this indicates a good month with no woes for me. or nothing fanta-bulous to record. yeah, i’ve gotten lazy to document the little victories or happy blips.. since FB is so much easier. anyways. just a few things i thought i’d scribble down before i snooze for the night..
on friendships
perhaps as a function of ageing and growing up, faced with the need to prioritise all the time, we make choices about people around us too. adr tells me like it’s a fact of life (i assume he’s experienced it enough), that we just need to come to terms with it. i gotta agree, it seems to be true. brutal as it sounds, i can reconcile n deal – i’m pretty sure i’ve done it (too many times) to others too. it’s one thing when the feeling’s mutual. but it’s odd when you discover one day that someone made a decision somewhere down the line that you were not worth their time anymore when u haven’t ever felt that way before. ever.
this signifies the end of an era, perhaps? and funny that i should chance upon this just as i completed the entry.
原来，曾经亲密无间的两个人，会连路人都不如；原来，如此关心爱护的两个人，也会彻底地失去联系。每个人都是孤独的个体，学会坚强，学会勇敢，学会拿的起，就能放的下。感情，会浓，也会变淡。即使有千般不愿，万般不舍，也阻止不了它的离去。删掉一切，却无法删掉那最深的记忆。
on (positive) changes
it just dawned on me tonight that other than more tenderness and quality time spent, he’s lightened up plenty – almost all of a sudden. i smile when i look back. this week, he spoke about doing other stuff together, putting up a “mall ban”.. it’s great ‘cos then we’ll get to know other facets of one another. for a long time, i felt he doesn’t want to do anything else with me. also, much as i complain when he jokes and jabs at me, it’s all good. he cracks jokes abit more, laughs and smiles more, is no longer as closed-up/untouchable. i chuckle inside at how we actually raced up 4 flights of stairs this evening — two grown-ups. hurhur. also, these days, we share resources (read: finances) a little more.. more liberal/less concerned with who-pays-what. i feel as though we’ve eased into something deeper. i’m glad – i’d like to think i’m a positive influence, which i believe really isn’t that far from the truth. haha! but of course, i should hear it from him for it to kinda count.
it’s all good. appreciate deeply what God has blessed us with. (:
