two weeks into the engagement, someone asked me, “so have u gotten used to it? where’s the ring??” to which i saw two ways to interpret the qn.. did he mean getting used to e ring, or getting used to e new status? :P
the sensation of having sth on e finger actually took awhile to get used to. early on, i think some people were literally distracted by the bling. i was conscious about wearing an additional piece of jewellery too. but well, aside from tt – not tt complicated a process. teehee.
psychologically, i guess it boosted my self-esteem that bit – silly as it sounds..can’t deny it. the notion of being “taken n wanted” was positively good. (; yeah, superficial i am. but more than tt, i felt pampered by him all of a sudden. he was certainly treating me a lot nicer – more caring, sweeter, gentler, more tender, more even-tempered.
he’d speak nicely, taking care not to upset/hurt me..he’d initiate meeting up, telling me tt he missed me.. he’d go along w my whims n fancy just to make me happy.. and winner was when he spent time w me shopping (his most dreaded activity) v patiently. he even gave constructive comments as he patiently waited while i tried out clothes!
i fondly remember tt he cooked dinner for us (v delish maggi “upsized”) one Sunday. he put a lot of thought into what usually would have been assembled quickly. he added heibi, HUGE round canned mushrooms, luncheon meat (w marinate process, no less!) and eggs, on top o e instant noodles. i didn’t even lift a finger..i was only flipping through bridal magazines tt night while dinner was being prepared. t’was vaaaaair naise. (:
after tt meal, we read nigella’s cook book together n had so much fun just tagging recipes we wanted to try out. some tender, precious moments were shared that night, and it still makes me smile just thinking abt it. ((:
when we eventually went grocery shopping, we had loads of fun too cos he’d wanted to browse the aisles slowly together! it was NEVA like him to do tt..of cos he claims he doesn’t rem doing the impatient thing to me, and even said tt i was crazy n disobedient for rushing through it and running away from him. :P he is pure cartoon. when it finally came down to the actual cooking, we had loads of laughter and little nonsense tiffs in between.
if i had to sum it all up, i discovered through these few weeks tt i am in v v good hands. certainly, first of all – that God is in control and i’ve nothing to worry. aside from tt, not only hv i grown accustomed to e idea of being engaged, i’ve grown to become more certain about trusting my life n heart to this man. he’s given me peeks n glimpses that assures me this: that being married to him will be a choice that will make me very happy. granted, it’ll not always be peachy. but yes, even then!
though we’ve not fixed a date just yet, i’m already looking forward to it. (oh, but what’s new for ms eager beaver over here. HAHA!)
thankful much.
