rollercoaster

it’s amazing how much of a rollercoaster ride i take myself on when it comes to work. i must be nuts deep inside and emotional as hell without me knowing it. been feeling back and forth about the mega-event and been feeling kinda down about it lately actually. it’s happening today, and i wasn’t particularly excited about it. not perhaps until 15mins ago when i started watching the corporate videos from the VWOs.

once again, i am in awe at how everything fell in place. i would say what started off as “finding an angle” for the mega-event has become something that sits so nicely that i can’t imagine the mega-event without it anymore. while people may think and say it’s lame, but i only just realized how little i knew about these VWOs, and how much the mega-event could potentially do. even if the impact is just small ripples in a pond for now.

guilty; i didn’t believe it earlier. but now i do.

manymanymany

it’s only been a few days and all of a sudden i have got soooooo many things i want to write about! and i haven’t even written about my holiday to koh samui yet. well, at least three-quarters of the pictures are already up. once i complete that, i will write. hehe. well, on to the many things i wanna talk about!

BPS

i attended an event at zouk just now to catch some of my students in action, and also to see the tertiary social dance scene. i rushed down from a meeting, so the journey wasn’t exactly pleasant but i must say i really enjoyed my evening despite skipping dinner and all.

peter cincotti in town

before i made my trip to bkk in august, i recall getting upset with adr for the first time over peter cincotti. without boring everyone with too much details, it can be summarized as “difficulty in making a decision to get tickets”. :P

educational evening

i was told to keep 18 oct evening free around 2 months back. when asked what it was about, he kept dismissing it as “nothing too big or spectacular” and only something to be considered as an “educational evening” for me. having tried (but failed) a few times to probe more, i gave up asking for more hints and just allowed the suspense to kill me and waited patiently for the day to arrive.

i must say i didn’t have any clear guesses as to what it might have been. my last question to him was, “is it something close to your heart?… like music, or something..?” it wasn’t answered, but little did i know or expect my question to be soooo appropriate. (:

picnic

had a pretty early start to my sunday cos i was serving in BPJ centre this weekend. the CVs had practice right after lunch, so EL and i went to BPP for lunch with the gang from WDL. the yangsters’ kiddos were soooo cute; pity i didn’t photograph them yesterday at MOS BURGER tho.

the more interesting bit of my day was actually the later half of it! i spent a fair-weathered sunday evening in the botanic gardens yesterday. (:

feedback

looking around at the little bit of hype we’ve generated with the event, i’m wondering if this was good enough an outcome. somehow, not every bit of me is rejoicing. i don’t know why and can’t quite explain it. despite all good things that people have said, i don’t feel for it. is the ‘achievement’ meaningless? the last time i really felt accomplished was perhaps when i completed the “wondrous gift” project in december 2006. or jamX 2005 – even though people didn’t think we were deserving winners. this time round, it’s just not as exhilarating. :/

photo credit: http://www.photoblog.com/shiqin

might it be because i didn’t do as great a job as i had imagined i could and would? might it be because i didn’t feel as much for the project as i should have..? might it be because a part of me was detached (emotionally)? might it be because there was too much frustration involved along the way that i stopped enjoying it?

i haven’t quite found the answer. maybe a part of me doesn’t really want to find out. whatever it is. here’s to capture all the links that have mentioned us in one way or another..

• http://jonyq.multiply.com/journal/item/233/IGNITE_Music_Festival
• http://www.photoblog.com/shiqin/2008/07/25/ignite-music-festival-2008-at-rp-i.html
• http://www.photoblog.com/shiqin/2008/07/26/ignite-music-festival-2008-at-rp-ii.html
• http://www.guitar4christ.com/postp364128.html
• http://soft.com.sg/forum/gigs-concerts/68537-ignite-music-festival-2008-a.html
• http://www.mybloglog.com/buzz/topics/ignitemusicfestival2008
• http://jaywalk.blog-city.com/smile_natalie.htm
• http://www.xtralicious.com/2008/07/11/operation-smile-please-spread-the-word/

hoping to find more by the end of next week. here’s working towards the next festival already. (:

mopey

friday evening, and i’m stoning somewhat at my desk after having dealt with all that i need to at work. still hv got drips and draps left to do. next week is THE event. i’m beating myself up for not being as organised as i’d like to be and as smart as i’d like to be. but that makes things worse and that’s the problem with me.

but i will learn. i will make effective changes and stop the self sabotage (i can’t remember the term for it! hmmph). i’m not proud of my mistakes, but i shall stop dwelling on them. break that silly cycle.

so yeah, come for the event! then again, if u know me and read my blog, u should already know about this event. ;) if not i will slaughter u. for those who have streamed on in, come for the music fest next weekend!

aniwaes. while there’s already so much to do, there’s this other silly nagging problem caused by this unreasonable female of the species which even i (as a lady) cannot understand. she cannot comprehend simple sentences, cannot compose proper emails, is uber disorganized, has a stupendously warped sense of reality whereby she demands for explanations when she has no rights to them, and.. sigh. i can’t go on. unreasonable, unreasonable, unreasonable. this has been so before she was preggie and now that she is. yikes.

i’m knitting my brows uncontrollably. *deep sigh* i wish she would just see what a horrible person she has been and how much of an inconvenience she has been. this is wasting my resources. this is the last i’ll talk about it. think happy thoughts!

i’ll probably be back at work the next two days for various reasons. months of july and august are always crazy for us in terms of external invitations and it’s really quite the sianz. on a more positive note though.. the 2 student groups under my (more) direct care are picking themselves up. it shall only get better!!

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two shows in a day

this is one of those rare occasions where i planned to watch two performances in a day, bought tickets on my own and in advance. a little after i bought my tickets, i found out tt ms ong had wanted to go catch the first of the two, and we even managed to get adjacent seats although tickets were purchased half a day apart. heh..

Hydro Sapiens :: S’pore Arts Festival Closing

after having gone for the opening show, the closing was of course a must. heh! interestingly, both were part of outreach events to do with the water element. considering all ways to measure success of these 2 events, i think both have done tremendously well.

Quartet New Generation

the last ticketed performance of the Singapore Arts Festival 2008 i’m catching this year. when i first flipped through artsbeat, i shortlisted the show and circled the title because i was intrigued by the synopsis and wondered what on earth a recorder concert would be like. i kinda sat on it for awhile and thought i would wait and see if i reaaaally wanted to go.

since i could get subsidy for catching a few shows, i decided i would do one of each art form. i went with radio and juliet, and of course LOTR. (i didn’t eventually do theatre, but that’s cos of bad timing.) while this whole decision-making action was going on, i was pleasantly surprised to find my friend to be a recorder fanatic. happily, i found someone interested in the show to go with me. (: