standing up for the first time

realizing her life’s potential

very eventful

the title of the post is a warning that this will be pretty long and jumbled up. heh!

i reached work rather late today – felt extremely bad about it but i can only make up for it. been trying to wake up earlier and get to work earlier but haven’t been able to get enough sleep to make that happen. i guess i’ve been too carried away with doing my own stuff after i get home. have also been staying out too much, although it’s only seasonal.

anyways. my choir senior and fellow student conductor came by to “visit” and we made attempts to meet up on both thursday and friday. failed to on thurs cos our schedules just didn’t fit. she’s been in the ulu-ulu area of mine in the past 2 days and will be here tomorrow as well. haha! finally, we met up in the evening and sat chatting in the level 2 foyer. on hindsight, that was really blatant of me. should have picked a less conspicuous spot. we had a great time catching up. (:

in the midst of that, mr lim came by with his tin whistle to show me the instrument and his part in the Singapore Festival Orchestra. by some stroke of luck, or i should say divine appointment, he is playing the Lord of the Rings Symphony in the upcoming Singapore Arts Festival. how cool is it that?! with just one day of practice, i must say he sounded really good. i shall go watch and support. naaaaice..

after that, i sent ms E off and went back to catch up on work. because i stayed back, i had a good chat with both mr glamourous and mr (big) G. it came about only because mr glamourous was frustrated at how things went for day 2 of dance fest. i hear our crew saying too that there’s virtually no publicity. i think we have saturated the home market, problem is that the rest of the world doesn’t know about it at all (almost!). minus friends of crew and dancers, i think very few know of it.

i related my anecdotes and highlighted my main gripes. why are people so spoilt to think that they should necessarily have an assistant at their disposal? i dun pull ranks and i really dun mind we work on par on all things. but i hate being sidelined whenever questions on marketing go straight past me. only because i really don’t think good decisions can be made on her own.

then again, she just goes straight to mr G all the time anyway. he said so himself, that she thinks he’s the only one who would listen to her. i guess we can’t blame her since we don’t agree with her ideas most times. and that the whole world makes fun of her all the time. but this to me reflects a lot more about her inner insecurities than anything. it’s almost like a small kid running off to the teacher each time she cannot deal with things. or a small kid running off to the parents to complain about the sibling who just bullied her. we’ll just see how mr G and mr glam deals with it.

enough about that. i then met up with wl, beebs, mr Ma, ms Do, mr Chr and peripheral others at lunar (clarke quay). ms khoo was too tired to attend so she wasn’t there. the place was quite a culture shock to me. first, we saw a white guy sing canto pop and banter with a chinese guy in cantonese. almost immediately after that, this chinese dude did In The End and then hokkien pop. i realized that i know the bassist of the band though. and when the dj spinned, he spoke too much and had a very strange mix of music. no artistic curation if you ask me. we went from hong kong to taiwan to bhangra-robics to mambo night.

as an aside, the crazy guy with a name too good for him was there too. he be the one who had a heated argument with me. funnily enough, i accidentally stepped on him the day before in wala’s. hehe. he tried to apologize and “make up” for whatever he felt he did or said wrong back in january. his reasons were illogical and that made it sound triply insincere. i dun think he even realizes that everything he says oozes of it.

i let him say what he wanted, shook hands and left it as it is. after awhile, he came by and tried to make me drink – claiming that he would send me back, that i was already high anyway, etc. i firmly said that i wasn’t gonna drink. he went on to try to “make up” again, and tried to hug me. nonsense. *cue rolling eyes* granted, he was intoxicated on both occasions. but frankly, i find that i can’t take him seriously and i don’t think he is capable of taking care of my friend.

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eye contact

after awhile, we headed for home. i got back and i spotted this kitty cat which slept on my car some months back. i approached it slowly and took some (test) shots with my mom’s new compact camera. next thing i knew, it started being a kitty-camwhore, got playful with me rolling around on the car, causing soft thuds with its paws. it’s a pity the kitty was too cynical to play with or pet though. i left it alone after a failed attempt to sayang it.

i know i have already been awfully random with this post. but as a final closing, i thought it was v nice to just dwell in my own world today. taking my own sweet time playing with the kitty cat is one. doing whimsical things like drive off somewhere familiar to refresh my memories attached to it is another. penning my thoughts down is another. i like.. (:

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